…..and I’m pretty much at my wit’s end with crankiness.
In no way do I blame this on President Obama—I just want to be clear on that!
I still feel pride and hope when I watch him handle ALL the shit he deals with in regard to the state of the world, and having him as our president is still a thrill.
I refuse to criticize him for the financial mess the world is in right now—--but how can it ever change when we have such bad and one-sided systems to run everything?
Will he be able to change anything really?
And how do you deal with keeping up a good front in the face of disaster when everything in this world is based on financial success and geared entirely for the wealthy?
Yes I'm still glad to have President Obama, especially now when the world is in the worst state I can remember in my many years, and totally created by us humans. It's not bad enough that we’ve ignored Global Warming, and the extinction of thousands of species—but once again the threat of nuclear weapons raises it’s ugly head and then there are the countless problems with our wars and the violence in the Middle East, etc, etc, etc.
I can’t really feel too sorry for myself, because in comparison to other people and the awful struggles some of my family members and friends are going through right now— -my problems are so insignificant and yet the over-all gloom and doom that hangs over me right now seems insurmountable.
I know I’ll get over it when I apply all my past experience to today and do all the things I hate – like deal with all my creditors.
This time it will destroy my credit rating—probably beyond repair—and that’s why I’m so upset.
After having a couple of normal months of work—it has stopped once more and I’m back to having basically no income all month and all my plans that are up shit creek.
Just when I reach the week of an important birthday—and really want to celebrate—I can do nothing---but hope that miracles will once again happen to make things “right” at the last minute.
And yet---in writing this blog, I am doing something--I guess!
I want to help others realize that they are not alone—that they are not to give up, and that they should write about their experiences as putting it in words does help.
Forget about your heartaches and headaches and all your problems for a couple of hours—like I will- (off to play a bit of tennis)- and go out, enjoy a bit of sunshine—or take a walk in the rain and you will feel better.
In my case all my problems will still be here—but I will deal with them somehow.
For a tennis fan like me there is of course Wimbledon --which should keep me pretty busy for the next 2 weeks.
I predicted a Roger Federer and Andy Murray final--and say Go Roger--get that 15th slam under your belt!
Just one more thing- pleas -remember the frogs--please go and log onto www.savethefrogs.com
and go to see Dr.Kerry Kriger who is in Seattle all week--giving lectures on this subject.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Day 148 in the Age of Obama.....
and I was very cranky all morning--however by noon I was back to feeling okay about things.
I really don’t know how much longer I can think about politics, and especially politicians--as it does at times seem that they really are all the same—regardless of the party they represent.
By that I mean that they will say anything—just to get into office—but once there—all their promises seem to fall by the wayside. Should I be surprised—of course not—but I’m pretty upset about some of the decisions being made at the White House at the moment.
I know that President Obama’s attention is on getting us a better healthcare system at the moment, but why doesn’t he just push it through, like the shrub pushed his agenda when he was in office? We all know that he could do it with only 51 votes—so WTF not?
I know it hasn’t been that long—just 148 days---but what ever happened to his WH being the “Most-Open house for the people”?
(They refused to publish the WH visitors’ log—since the inauguration.)
Or this: “Nobody is above the law”?
Think of the people who issued the “torture” orders.
(Still hanging around and inciting the simple- minded among us.)
Or “don’t ask don’t tell.”
(More gay people have been fired in the last few weeks than before.)
I could go on –but I’d only get cranky again—and I don’t want to dwell on negativity right now—so I’ll just remind every one of how things are better than before, anyway.
I mean what were our options? I ask myself now—what would Hilary have done differently? What could she do differently—given the condition this country was handed over in, after the last election? And the situation is still is precarious in every way!
Or what about the other alternative –too awful to mention? But you know the ones I mean, as they continue to butt their noses into our affairs at every opportunity, seemingly not realizing that they lost the election!
So I’m happy to say that I am still tremendously proud to have President Obama lead our nation, considering all the shit that’s happening around the world.
I still smile when I see him and hear him speak, and stand in awe of the enormous job he is expected to carry out in record time. I will try not to dwell on the scary things I’m hearing all around me –even as I write this with the last rays of daylight.
I will dwell in the moment, enjoy the company of my son and my dear sweet cats, while I can and hope that tomorrow will be a better morning and day for all of us.
I really don’t know how much longer I can think about politics, and especially politicians--as it does at times seem that they really are all the same—regardless of the party they represent.
By that I mean that they will say anything—just to get into office—but once there—all their promises seem to fall by the wayside. Should I be surprised—of course not—but I’m pretty upset about some of the decisions being made at the White House at the moment.
I know that President Obama’s attention is on getting us a better healthcare system at the moment, but why doesn’t he just push it through, like the shrub pushed his agenda when he was in office? We all know that he could do it with only 51 votes—so WTF not?
I know it hasn’t been that long—just 148 days---but what ever happened to his WH being the “Most-Open house for the people”?
(They refused to publish the WH visitors’ log—since the inauguration.)
Or this: “Nobody is above the law”?
Think of the people who issued the “torture” orders.
(Still hanging around and inciting the simple- minded among us.)
Or “don’t ask don’t tell.”
(More gay people have been fired in the last few weeks than before.)
I could go on –but I’d only get cranky again—and I don’t want to dwell on negativity right now—so I’ll just remind every one of how things are better than before, anyway.
I mean what were our options? I ask myself now—what would Hilary have done differently? What could she do differently—given the condition this country was handed over in, after the last election? And the situation is still is precarious in every way!
Or what about the other alternative –too awful to mention? But you know the ones I mean, as they continue to butt their noses into our affairs at every opportunity, seemingly not realizing that they lost the election!
So I’m happy to say that I am still tremendously proud to have President Obama lead our nation, considering all the shit that’s happening around the world.
I still smile when I see him and hear him speak, and stand in awe of the enormous job he is expected to carry out in record time. I will try not to dwell on the scary things I’m hearing all around me –even as I write this with the last rays of daylight.
I will dwell in the moment, enjoy the company of my son and my dear sweet cats, while I can and hope that tomorrow will be a better morning and day for all of us.
Friday, June 12, 2009
Day 144 in the Age of Obama…and I refuse to stay cranky!
This morning I woke up feeling low and depressed and very cranky. As I stepped into the bathroom—I found a little brown gift from one of my cats and narrowly avoided stepping in it.
Later I realized that it was just a bit of vomit, which was easier to handle and wash—so I went back to bed with a cup of tea and listened to Stephanie Miller until my mood was light and more able to deal with everything that the day had in store—actual shit on the carpet in my studio for starters!
Now a lot of my crankiness revolves around not having enough work again—but there is also the fact that I am so sick and tired of hearing the name of Sarah Palin being mentioned every five minutes on my radio station and everywhere else!
So David Letterman made a joke—I happened to catch it and thought it was slightly funny and immediately moved on, as most adults would—and I’m a mother too!
I will not give her credence by dwelling on her here—but WTF????????????
Must we be subjected to her primitive points of view any longer?
She herself subjected her kids to the limelight and made me sick at the sight of them—(poor things) no offense intended as they could hardly choose their mother-but the over-exposure sucked!
Is she planning to bring them out again when she runs in 2012?
Anyway a lot of other things to rant about—like the election in Iran—looks like nothing changed there, just the same old, same old –in a week when there was such hope.
Oh well change comes slowly and I am glad that our President Obama has taken a strong stand on the healthcare issue and I’m sure he will get something going –something that has to be better than nothing for those 47 million of us who can’t afford any kind of health insurance.
Who would have thought that some of the biggest battles would come from within our own party?
It’s just unbelievable really that at this time when things are as bad as they are in every possible way—climate change, foreclosures, bankruptcies, shootings, murders, 2 wars, etc. etc. that we—the dems-- can’t get our shit together!
Why are they worse than the republicans—from whom we expect nothing more?
And at the same time---why do we still have to kowtow to the republicans?
Why do we still have to be subjected to the party of racists, twisted child pornographers, naysayers, liars and cheats and mass murderers?
Please tell me if you can—anyone?
PS.
Just a quick note to those who care about the planet and the continuance of the species!
Please boycott any stores that sell frogs legs!
I noticed that Albertson’s have them—so I’m staying away from them!
Later I realized that it was just a bit of vomit, which was easier to handle and wash—so I went back to bed with a cup of tea and listened to Stephanie Miller until my mood was light and more able to deal with everything that the day had in store—actual shit on the carpet in my studio for starters!
Now a lot of my crankiness revolves around not having enough work again—but there is also the fact that I am so sick and tired of hearing the name of Sarah Palin being mentioned every five minutes on my radio station and everywhere else!
So David Letterman made a joke—I happened to catch it and thought it was slightly funny and immediately moved on, as most adults would—and I’m a mother too!
I will not give her credence by dwelling on her here—but WTF????????????
Must we be subjected to her primitive points of view any longer?
She herself subjected her kids to the limelight and made me sick at the sight of them—(poor things) no offense intended as they could hardly choose their mother-but the over-exposure sucked!
Is she planning to bring them out again when she runs in 2012?
Anyway a lot of other things to rant about—like the election in Iran—looks like nothing changed there, just the same old, same old –in a week when there was such hope.
Oh well change comes slowly and I am glad that our President Obama has taken a strong stand on the healthcare issue and I’m sure he will get something going –something that has to be better than nothing for those 47 million of us who can’t afford any kind of health insurance.
Who would have thought that some of the biggest battles would come from within our own party?
It’s just unbelievable really that at this time when things are as bad as they are in every possible way—climate change, foreclosures, bankruptcies, shootings, murders, 2 wars, etc. etc. that we—the dems-- can’t get our shit together!
Why are they worse than the republicans—from whom we expect nothing more?
And at the same time---why do we still have to kowtow to the republicans?
Why do we still have to be subjected to the party of racists, twisted child pornographers, naysayers, liars and cheats and mass murderers?
Please tell me if you can—anyone?
PS.
Just a quick note to those who care about the planet and the continuance of the species!
Please boycott any stores that sell frogs legs!
I noticed that Albertson’s have them—so I’m staying away from them!
Monday, June 8, 2009
Today is the 140th day in the Age of Obama
---unless I’m mistaken—---but I’m only a little cranky!
I took a couple of weeks off from my normal routine in order to fully immerse myself in Tennis—and somehow it all worked out.
Roger Federer became the “best tennis player ever” –by winning at Roland Garros and thus completing his Grand Slam—and tying the number of Grand Slam wins with the great Pete Sampras--- at 14 now.
Now please don’t think that my life is just all about tennis (I wish it was), but I really needed a break from my usual routine of being “political” almost 24-7!
The last time I listened to my progressive radio station before the French Open---I became horribly depressed and even Thom Hartmann—(whom I love and respect deeply) with his insights and predictions was too much for me—so I switched it off—or almost off –as I couldn’t resist the wonderfully hilarious Stephanie Miller to wake up to and occasionally listen to, late at night!
There were other reasons too, for my absence from my blog: lets just call it “ADJUSTING”!
Late last year my youngest child finally moved away for almost six months—far away to Australia—and it took a lot of adjusting on my part to actually live my life in a new way.
The two of us have been cohabiting throughout all his school years as well as 4 years at college, and I had 16 years of parenting before he was even born—so it’s been a long time since I could just think for myself.
Lo and behold—just when I got used to really enjoying my freedom—we are back together for a few months—and now the adjusting is back to square one—(for both of us), and already there are times when I forget that he’d ever left.
However—as is often said “it’s all good” and it’s lovely to get my back rubbed and a cup of tea made—and all that kind of stuff—so I am not complaining—simply explaining that I somehow have less time now—!
Anyhow—the world seems to have improved ever so slightly— or ever so much—depending on one’s point of view) since President Obama took office— and I took time off!
He is back from another trip, making friends and influencing people, and again I ask: how fantastic is that?
No embarrassing gaffes, no shoes being thrown at our leader and it seems that a new kind of peace may be in the offering in the Middle East!
I know that there are millions of things that he hasn’t gotten around to yet—but it’s only been 5 months—and most things are moving in the right direction.
So I’ll let it go at that today and get the dinner ready—now that I’m domesticated again.
I took a couple of weeks off from my normal routine in order to fully immerse myself in Tennis—and somehow it all worked out.
Roger Federer became the “best tennis player ever” –by winning at Roland Garros and thus completing his Grand Slam—and tying the number of Grand Slam wins with the great Pete Sampras--- at 14 now.
Now please don’t think that my life is just all about tennis (I wish it was), but I really needed a break from my usual routine of being “political” almost 24-7!
The last time I listened to my progressive radio station before the French Open---I became horribly depressed and even Thom Hartmann—(whom I love and respect deeply) with his insights and predictions was too much for me—so I switched it off—or almost off –as I couldn’t resist the wonderfully hilarious Stephanie Miller to wake up to and occasionally listen to, late at night!
There were other reasons too, for my absence from my blog: lets just call it “ADJUSTING”!
Late last year my youngest child finally moved away for almost six months—far away to Australia—and it took a lot of adjusting on my part to actually live my life in a new way.
The two of us have been cohabiting throughout all his school years as well as 4 years at college, and I had 16 years of parenting before he was even born—so it’s been a long time since I could just think for myself.
Lo and behold—just when I got used to really enjoying my freedom—we are back together for a few months—and now the adjusting is back to square one—(for both of us), and already there are times when I forget that he’d ever left.
However—as is often said “it’s all good” and it’s lovely to get my back rubbed and a cup of tea made—and all that kind of stuff—so I am not complaining—simply explaining that I somehow have less time now—!
Anyhow—the world seems to have improved ever so slightly— or ever so much—depending on one’s point of view) since President Obama took office— and I took time off!
He is back from another trip, making friends and influencing people, and again I ask: how fantastic is that?
No embarrassing gaffes, no shoes being thrown at our leader and it seems that a new kind of peace may be in the offering in the Middle East!
I know that there are millions of things that he hasn’t gotten around to yet—but it’s only been 5 months—and most things are moving in the right direction.
So I’ll let it go at that today and get the dinner ready—now that I’m domesticated again.
Friday, June 5, 2009
Oh My God Oh My God Oh My God!
Oh My God Oh My God Oh My God!
Today I watched one of the best, most intense, nail-biting tennis matches ever!
Right now I had to stop dancing around the living room and ‘high-fiving” my son—just because I wanted to share this feeling with more than just the two of us.
Because of influences beyond out control we had to abandon watching the match live around the beginning of the fourth set, when Roger was down: love 15, in the fourth set, and down by two sets to one and looked like he was about to miss out on being in the French Open final when this was the only time in four attempts that Nadal was out of the picture; and this was around 3.30 pm West Coast time!
Can you imagine how hard it was to stop watching?
All I wanted to do was get drunk, stoned and totally out of it and not think of this amazing, lost opportunity for Roger—when somebody whom he had beaten effortlessly for the last five times, might actually snatch a win.
To me and obviously for thousands of people in the Arena wanting the great champion to win his only missing trophy to complete a grand slam and thus crowning him as “the best player ever”, it was difficult to watch.
So …in a way it was good to spend some hours “disconnecting from the match” between that doubtful third game of the fourth and then the final two sets, to put things into the right perspective for me.
So I spent the next four hours working, avoiding all media and just enjoying music
When I finished my work I did some cooking and opened my first beer. Mercifully the phone rang soon after and I found that I would soon be put out of my misery.
Only 20 minutes to go and I’d find out what the fuck happened…to Roger and his dream to catch up to Pete Sampras and win his 14th. Grand Slam.
I can’t stand the way I feel so deeply about any kind sports result—but for those who read my occasional blog and journal know—I am a huge tennis fan—and Roger is my favorite player ever---and it hurts me deeply...whenever he loses.
I have to say that I had to be somewhat tipsy…but to cut a long and tiring story short…he ended up coming back from all that…to break Del Potro in the fourth set winning it at 6-2.
So we celebrated ….thinking that it was all over and that Rog had totally annihilated his opponent, when Del Potro came back.
By the time the score was 3- all, we were back to biting our nails.
Now all our hopes were dashed once more.
The camera kept focusing on people in the audience, who were obviously just as freaked out as we were, holding their faces in their hands and looking most distraught.
I kept thinking how this was one of those freaky years—when anything could happen, after all who would have ever thought that the world would be stunned by witnessing Nadal ousted early --- in the fourth round?
At the time it seemed that this was Roger’s best chance to win this long coveted and elusive trophy…but now it seemed that everybody was a better player than Roger….he couldn’t win---no matter whom he played.
The camera focused on Mr. Federer the elder standing in the wings, waiting for his son to complete this match. His face showed the stress we all felt…but when Roger managed to hold his serve…it lit up like a Xmas tree, and the camera followed him to his seat, where Mirka—Roger’s wife—smiled with relief.
Now--- if only Roger could break in the next game—everything would be OK—so we watched and hoped and prayed and for a while it seemed that he would actually break and win his semi final—but once again, he failed to put us out of our misery ( as easily as we’d hoped)…meaning that he had to hold serve once more in order to win.
If you’re as big a tennis fan as I am—you would have seen Roger lose his first grand slam of the year—the Aussie Open—to Rafa ...and be beaten by several up and coming players in the minor tournaments leading up to this great event.
His chances to win in Paris this time were considered very slight by the tennis media consisting mainly of well-known ex-coaches, really old players, and former champions.
(I do love them all and their chatter—bit loyalty is not their forte).
To me it seemed that they were really never giving Roger his dues and only ever wanted to talk about Nadal, Djokovic and Andy Murray.
(To his credit—Rafa himself has deep respect for Roger and all his accomplishments.)
So personally I was thrilled even more when they dropped out one by one and Roger was the only player of note still standing, and finally –Roger began to get his dues once more.
Bu at the same time--the pressure was back on…and he was once more contending to ‘become the best tennis player ever’.
Nobody was talking about Nadal and the others— it’s just Federer and a Swedish player named Robin Soderling —the one who had beaten Nadal, but had never made it past any third rounds.
All of a sudden the weight of expectations had fallen on his shoulders and how would he now handle it?
So would Roger now have the goods to beat Del Potro?
Can he?
Yes he can! Yes he did— –and yes he did! Did I say he won?
Somehow he just morphed back into his best version of himself and came up with some amazing shots just when he needed it the most, and finished strong.
Del Potro even seemed happy for Roger to win, and being only 20 years old, he’ll have many more chances to win his own trophies.
So now to wait until Sunday…can I wait?
Yes I can, because I have to…but it’s hard!
Today I watched one of the best, most intense, nail-biting tennis matches ever!
Right now I had to stop dancing around the living room and ‘high-fiving” my son—just because I wanted to share this feeling with more than just the two of us.
Because of influences beyond out control we had to abandon watching the match live around the beginning of the fourth set, when Roger was down: love 15, in the fourth set, and down by two sets to one and looked like he was about to miss out on being in the French Open final when this was the only time in four attempts that Nadal was out of the picture; and this was around 3.30 pm West Coast time!
Can you imagine how hard it was to stop watching?
All I wanted to do was get drunk, stoned and totally out of it and not think of this amazing, lost opportunity for Roger—when somebody whom he had beaten effortlessly for the last five times, might actually snatch a win.
To me and obviously for thousands of people in the Arena wanting the great champion to win his only missing trophy to complete a grand slam and thus crowning him as “the best player ever”, it was difficult to watch.
So …in a way it was good to spend some hours “disconnecting from the match” between that doubtful third game of the fourth and then the final two sets, to put things into the right perspective for me.
So I spent the next four hours working, avoiding all media and just enjoying music
When I finished my work I did some cooking and opened my first beer. Mercifully the phone rang soon after and I found that I would soon be put out of my misery.
Only 20 minutes to go and I’d find out what the fuck happened…to Roger and his dream to catch up to Pete Sampras and win his 14th. Grand Slam.
I can’t stand the way I feel so deeply about any kind sports result—but for those who read my occasional blog and journal know—I am a huge tennis fan—and Roger is my favorite player ever---and it hurts me deeply...whenever he loses.
I have to say that I had to be somewhat tipsy…but to cut a long and tiring story short…he ended up coming back from all that…to break Del Potro in the fourth set winning it at 6-2.
So we celebrated ….thinking that it was all over and that Rog had totally annihilated his opponent, when Del Potro came back.
By the time the score was 3- all, we were back to biting our nails.
Now all our hopes were dashed once more.
The camera kept focusing on people in the audience, who were obviously just as freaked out as we were, holding their faces in their hands and looking most distraught.
I kept thinking how this was one of those freaky years—when anything could happen, after all who would have ever thought that the world would be stunned by witnessing Nadal ousted early --- in the fourth round?
At the time it seemed that this was Roger’s best chance to win this long coveted and elusive trophy…but now it seemed that everybody was a better player than Roger….he couldn’t win---no matter whom he played.
The camera focused on Mr. Federer the elder standing in the wings, waiting for his son to complete this match. His face showed the stress we all felt…but when Roger managed to hold his serve…it lit up like a Xmas tree, and the camera followed him to his seat, where Mirka—Roger’s wife—smiled with relief.
Now--- if only Roger could break in the next game—everything would be OK—so we watched and hoped and prayed and for a while it seemed that he would actually break and win his semi final—but once again, he failed to put us out of our misery ( as easily as we’d hoped)…meaning that he had to hold serve once more in order to win.
If you’re as big a tennis fan as I am—you would have seen Roger lose his first grand slam of the year—the Aussie Open—to Rafa ...and be beaten by several up and coming players in the minor tournaments leading up to this great event.
His chances to win in Paris this time were considered very slight by the tennis media consisting mainly of well-known ex-coaches, really old players, and former champions.
(I do love them all and their chatter—bit loyalty is not their forte).
To me it seemed that they were really never giving Roger his dues and only ever wanted to talk about Nadal, Djokovic and Andy Murray.
(To his credit—Rafa himself has deep respect for Roger and all his accomplishments.)
So personally I was thrilled even more when they dropped out one by one and Roger was the only player of note still standing, and finally –Roger began to get his dues once more.
Bu at the same time--the pressure was back on…and he was once more contending to ‘become the best tennis player ever’.
Nobody was talking about Nadal and the others— it’s just Federer and a Swedish player named Robin Soderling —the one who had beaten Nadal, but had never made it past any third rounds.
All of a sudden the weight of expectations had fallen on his shoulders and how would he now handle it?
So would Roger now have the goods to beat Del Potro?
Can he?
Yes he can! Yes he did— –and yes he did! Did I say he won?
Somehow he just morphed back into his best version of himself and came up with some amazing shots just when he needed it the most, and finished strong.
Del Potro even seemed happy for Roger to win, and being only 20 years old, he’ll have many more chances to win his own trophies.
So now to wait until Sunday…can I wait?
Yes I can, because I have to…but it’s hard!
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