Day 155 in the Age of Obama—8.45 am

…..and I’m pretty much at my wit’s end with crankiness.

In no way do I blame this on President Obama—I just want to be clear on that!

I still feel pride and hope when I watch him handle ALL the shit he deals with in regard to the state of the world, and having him as our president is still a thrill.

I refuse to criticize him for the financial mess the world is in right now—--but how can it ever change when we have such bad and one-sided systems to run everything?
Will he be able to change anything really?

And how do you deal with keeping up a good front in the face of disaster when everything in this world is based on financial success and geared entirely for the wealthy?

Yes I'm still glad to have President Obama, especially now when the world is in the worst state I can remember in my many years, and totally created by us humans. It's not bad enough that we’ve ignored Global Warming, and the extinction of thousands of species—but once again the threat of nuclear weapons raises it’s ugly head and then there are the countless problems with our wars and the violence in the Middle East, etc, etc, etc.

I can’t really feel too sorry for myself, because in comparison to other people and the awful struggles some of my family members and friends are going through right now— -my problems are so insignificant and yet the over-all gloom and doom that hangs over me right now seems insurmountable.

I know I’ll get over it when I apply all my past experience to today and do all the things I hate – like deal with all my creditors.
This time it will destroy my credit rating—probably beyond repair—and that’s why I’m so upset.

After having a couple of normal months of work—it has stopped once more and I’m back to having basically no income all month and all my plans that are up shit creek.

Just when I reach the week of an important birthday—and really want to celebrate—I can do nothing---but hope that miracles will once again happen to make things “right” at the last minute.

And yet---in writing this blog, I am doing something--I guess!
I want to help others realize that they are not alone—that they are not to give up, and that they should write about their experiences as putting it in words does help.

Forget about your heartaches and headaches and all your problems for a couple of hours—like I will- (off to play a bit of tennis)- and go out, enjoy a bit of sunshine—or take a walk in the rain and you will feel better.

In my case all my problems will still be here—but I will deal with them somehow.

For a tennis fan like me there is of course Wimbledon --which should keep me pretty busy for the next 2 weeks.

I predicted a Roger Federer and Andy Murray final--and say Go Roger--get that 15th slam under your belt!

Just one more thing- pleas -remember the frogs--please go and log onto www.savethefrogs.com
and go to see Dr.Kerry Kriger who is in Seattle all week--giving lectures on this subject.